My Heart Sings

This song is probably the most deeply personal song I've written so far. I hesitated about posting it onto YouTube but then I thought no, I need to be honest with my fans and release the music that is flowing out of my life right now otherwise, what's the point? I might as well sing a bunch of cover songs and give up on originals if I'm too scared to write what's on my heart! So with this song, I really do write from the heart hence: 'My Heart Sings'.


You will probably notice that the songs I'm currently writing share similar themes and images, and tie in extensively with my other blog posts. That is once more down to the fact that I'm writing from experience of where I'm at right now. 


This song begins with my confusion as to why I had to go back to square one in my relationship with God. I must firstly say that, I'm not suggesting I have erased all that has gone before in this relationship. All that I have been through in the past, the ups and the downs, are really important and have had a huge influence on where I'm at today with God. But I recently came to a place where I questioned a) The very existence of God. b) Whether God loved me. c) Whether He was able to make me brand new and free me from all the mess I had got into. And d) Whether I had a future without DaViglio.


So I've been a Christian most of my life, I grew up in a Christian family and have always been in church. Yet at the age of 22 out of nowhere came this crisis point. The truths that I had always taken for granted and never questioned were all of a sudden unfamiliar to me and I had to choose whether I actually believed them. I had the experience I can imagine people have who come to faith later on in life from a completely non-Christian background. I had to decide whether I did believe God is real, that He loves me regardless of what I've done in my life, and that He has amazing plans for my future. 


So in the first lyric "I've heard it all before now, can't you just believe once and for all?" I refer to that discovery that yes, I have been a Christian most of my life and have had a relationship with God, but right now I need overcome my doubts and believe afresh the truth about who He is and who I am. 


The chorus describes where that path of belief led me, and that is to worship. I have led worship for approximately 6 years or so at my local church, but it wasn't until a few months ago that I realised that what I am called to in life is to lead people into the presence of God. Once I had believed anew who God was I couldn't help but worship him through music. All I wanted to listen to and sing was worship music, and singing the truths I believed helped remind me of their worth. 


The second verse of this song describes why I have to keep singing God's praises, because '...His mercies are new every morning..." (Lam. 3:23) Each time I worship, I'm being restored into the person I am supposed to be and made new. "That being the case, it all now makes sense - why each day a new song is required."

The final verse of 'My Heart Sings' reaffirms that nothing I can do will make God change His mind about how much he loves me, nothing will make him change his plans for my life into something less perfect, and nothing will come between me and my God! "Nothing can pluck me from your hand, you never ever loosen your grip."


I hope this blog has shed some light as to the personal meaning of this song. The last lines in the final verse, "My hope never escaped, my heart was never broken - those days have departed they're gone. That's what I must believe as I sing this song." are to signify that yes, I sometimes still have niggling doubts that I'm going to be alright and that everything is okay, but as soon as I start to believe the truth that I am perfectly safe and everything is going to be fine - deep inside I am made whole and restored. It's as though those doubts never existed - because God replaced them with his thoughts! :) 


"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." (Romans 12:2)


Lyrics


I've heard it all before now
Can't you just believe once and for all
Surprising myself, here I stand
At the place I thought was of no return

With an anxious mind and a heavy heart
I stumble to the place we first met
Nervously I lift my hands, and words leave my mouth
And I'm saved and restored once again

As I sing, Hallelujah
Offering Hallelujahs
My heart sings a loud Hosanna
To the One who saves my soul

I've heard it said that life is a journey
And every time I wake a day is born
That being the case, it all now makes sense
Why each day a new song is required

I will sing, Hallelujah
Offering Hallelujahs
My heart cries a new Hosanna
To the One who saves my soul

Nothing can pluck me from your hand
You never ever loosen your grip
My hope never escaped, my heart was never broken
Those days have departed, they're gone
That's what I must believe as I sing this song

I will sing, Hallelujah
Offering, Hallelujahs
My heart sings a loud Hosanna
To the One who saves my soul
You have heard my loud Hosannas
You return and save my soul.